Difficulties 170312

Yea, u're right.

i really wish that we didn't start before.

even i go out with friends i also need to scare, need to be worry.

Btw, today is the day,
i feel like i more like a girl.
no need to decide anything for u.

Everything well decide.
Last time when i was with u,
u never ever ask me about what to eat, help me order, or even help me to pay.
everything i help u to do, everything i help u pay.
even movie tickets, u say u don't dare to buy ticket and i help u to buy.
and u didn't say that u wanna belanja me watch movie before.
i help u to do everything.
i think because of that i feel damn tired.

These 2 years, i feel like im your boyfriend more than a girlfriend.
i never feel love from you, but tiredness.

As my boyfriend, these 2 years,
u don't even know what i like and what i dislike.
i didn't receive any luxury present from u,
but u always ask for more!

i feel really tired.
im a girl. i need care, i need love.
i really like that kind of feeling,
is like,
u no need to decide anything,
 just leave it to your partner.
and everything they'll just help u to settle.
(bt off cause. sometimes, we need to settle problem together.)

i really like
following some one's back blindly.
without reason, without objective.

U never ask for my feelings before.
u know that im sad, im emo,
 but u didn't came out with a solution.
u don't even come and comfort me for once.


What u like, u just want me to follow.
I feel that im really stupid.
stupid for loving u.

from now on,
i need to forget bout u.
This is a new start ! Victoria !
Gambateh !